19 Days Later...

Well...

I've still not found the specific oils to cure all issues in life. But the search has been nice. :)

Almost everyday of the week I have my diffuser going in the house with peace and calming wafting through the air. While this does not solve specifics, it does help keep some semblance of a clear mind. I've been doing some digging through my oil and herb books to see what oil/herb - single or compound - would help shine some light on the subject.

While I'm still at a loss for specifics, it is not because the information is not available. It's because before you can treat the illness, you have to know what it is. And in my case as of late, that is unknown. I take one day at a time with a Plan B and maybe a Plan C in my back pocket, trying to be ready for anything that is thrown at me again. While things like Peace and Calming help keep me leveled mentally and restrain me from going cliffside, I'm still lost on sorting out the emotions and thoughts that wander aimlessly like homeless children with no guidance or direction. I know that through many things including oils I'll manage and come through these tribulations. Oils will be my icing on the cake that help pull the emotions to the surface, hopefully one by one instead of all at the same time, to help face the things that have presented themselves to me.

I'll keep the blog updated on how things so. For now though it's back to work and back to studying for Plan B. :)

Catching Up and Sorting Out

So it's been abit since I've last written. I do apologize. Life has thrown me about four curve balls at once and I'm not Kali to try and catch them all.

One good thing is I finally remembered to send in for my diffuser and it came in. I use it as frequently as possible! I think it's the only reason I have some sanity right now.

So I've had many questions looming in my head and the loudest one right now is "Have you ever wanted to throw the towel in, pack all your crap, move and start over?" Well I'm definitely at the point right now. I've realized I need a large stock of oils right now to help me get through everything without severe and multiple anxiety attacks. I think I'll be growing my supply quickly.

I'm not sure how to handle being told that after 6 years with someone, 4 of those where marriage has been discussed and planned bit by bit that your boyfriend no longer wants to marry you - or anyone for that matter. He says he's not the marrying type. Oh flooded with the multiple emotions and thoughts and the "what do I do now?" scenarios. I'm still weighted and unsure. But I'm thankful I'm young enough to figure things out without feeling like I've thrown my life away. And thankfully this all happened before a ring was ever bought. But I guess that's why it's been delayed everything he's thought about. I've realized as well there isn't a Young Living oil that acts as a restart button. I've looked. Hehehe :D

I was rereading one of Jan's blogs earlier - about your definition of happiness - and it just stirred my thoughts anymore. I guess back to more thinking for now. And more digging for oils that will solve the world's problems. ;) (Just kidding - would be nice though.)