So what do you do.. when all hells break loose between you and your significant other(SO)?
A week ago a long conversation was had about how to better our situation.. then a week later.. seems like nothing matters and that no matter what I say is a lie. No way to prove differently. There is no trust between us much anymore these days. We love each other. Might be kind of hard to see sometimes... but we do. Whether we're "in love" I'm not sure of anymore.. and as the saying goes if you have to ask yourself than more than likely you aren't.
But I have to ask.. when is anyone ever IN LOVE with someone they are with? None of the people I know are... true I don't know what IN LOVE for them is.. but you can tell by their behavior they aren't. Most are willing to fool around or lie to their SOs. I won't lie and say I'm innocent..far from. But I deal with those demons on a daily basis. And one day I'll get over them. I'm sure of that.
What do you do when you make a friend to someone that your SO doesn't like? Yet has no justifiable reason to dislike said friend minus said friend is of the opposite sex. I could understand being concerned over a friend that is local.. but these friends are international.. and we've never met one another. But I can't be mad about female friends he has locally... *shrugs* I love the double standards.
I've contemplated my future for a while.. and those close to me know this. I've considered where and what I am and want to be. I know I want to be overseas. I feel at home there. Nothing against the US. I could do embassy work and be happy. Best of both worlds .. living overseas and yet still working for a country I do love, contrary to popular belief. Hehehe.
What do you do when you've hit that wall in every aspect of your life? You can't just stop.. well you could, but I don't consider that an option. Do you take the easy route and go around the wall, sidestepping the problem until a different time and place? Do you jump it hoping you don't lose your grip and fall again? Do you sit down and study the wall, your surroundings, and the things you have at hand to get over the wall successfully? I know I'd like to think I take the last of those approaches.. but I'm done lying to myself.. I know normally I either walk around it until a later time or I try to jump it ignorantly and pray I don't lose my grip. Well I'm tired of this... but what do you do when you try to take the last approach and solve the problem properly instead of ignoring it and everyone around you can't handle it... they abandon you, they accuse and assume things in which you do not do.. what do you do??
This is where I am at in life... suggestions anyway?
